I lay flat on my back, trying not to move. Like a gazelle that just noticed an approaching lion. I want to bury my face in a pillow or say “no” but am frozen in mute fear of facing abuse. He is fifteen years older and I feel vulnerable.
Archive for ‘Philosophy’
So I like thinking. A lot. Since I shed the restrictive burden of Protestantism five years ago, I’ve decided to be a good human being, striving not to hurt anyone and considering my steps from an empathetic perspective. It’s considerably more satisfying to do good out of your own desire than out of fear to burn in hell.
Talk to anyone who has denounced religion and they will tell you they’ve been through a complete reboot of Social Value Coding. All day (for years) you spend trying to figure out if your actions reflect your own needs or just what you’ve been told to for several decades. Believe me, it’s much easier to stay with religion. I didn’t do it to make my life easier.
Thus, when people have asked me what my religion is–or what I believe in–I have note been able to give a short answer. I’m not an atheist, humanist, spiritualist or anything else conveniently nameable by modern standards. I have been reading, thinking and writing about the source of human feelings & emotional energy as well as more perceivable sciences like astrophysics & biology or theories attempting to explain black holes, quantum leaps, spacetime and such things.
Only recently did I reflect that this way of interacting with the world, is commonly called Philosophy. So here are my rants based on independent research, considered by Marjolein.
“Philosophy is the study of the general and fundamental nature of reality, existence, knowledge, values, reason, mind, and language.”
Campfires and Dead Mice
When sleeping outdoors not too long ago, I watched a couple standing by a campfire. They looked positively satisfied with […]
The Gun Culture: Part V “It’s an Arms Race”
Last Saturday I was reminded by the local paper of the two-year memorial of Jeanetta Riley’s death at the Sanpdoint […]
A New Phase Of Life
High school was the best. Everything was new and each day thrilling. Each book, painting, touch, song. Lately I’ve been reflecting on that time, and sometimes I want to reclaim that excitement of when each moment was fresh. But I realized something — settling down doesn’t mean life will be dull; it’s simply time to start the next phase of life.
Is Older Always Wiser?
Older people have a habit of telling you that things could be much worse. Worse beyond my youthful (28) comprehension. […]
Dating Older Men
As a young woman, time spent with an older man is never wasted. You’re sure to learn something valuable like […]